Saturday, December 31, 2005

Party animal

I do like parties. I like hosting them even more. In fact, I like hosting them so much, I think I might have to pull on the reins a little so as not to burn myself out. Can you imagine... burning myself out hosting parties!!! And it wouldn't just be me burning out. My pocket would too!

New Year's Eve is tomorrow, which is aways a good chance to think of things I would like to accomplish and give thanks for things I have been given. I still haven't ridden a camel but I had an ostrich burger!

Friday, December 30, 2005

Post Christmas blues

Climaxed my post Christmasness with a 4th piercing. I don't think I'm getting addicted to piercings; just getting into it. Received 2 'funny' looks from 2 guy-friends who don't like piercings - they like their girls au natural... hahaha. I know they're just looking out for me but doubt that I'll be able to resist flashing my new stud just to get more 'funny' looks. If I'm addicted to anything, it's the cranking noise the stud gun makes just as it adds another metal clipping to my head. It's almost comforting, like the screech a lever makes being pulled as someone changes train tracks (I just reread what I wrote and I totally understand if you don't feel the same way - the screech of a lever indeed!). By the way, the new stud's a nice tanzanite blue. Will probably add a red one to the row before my birthday - then I'll have the Union Jack's colours on my cartilege - and if you count my lobe gold studs, I'll be singing the Malaysian flag's colours too. Have I told you that they're all on the same ear so that I'll still be able to sleep on the other side? See I've remained practical, sensible and level headed whilst trying to accomplish my goals. Anyway, enough about my fetish.

I really want to watch '10 Things I Hate About You' right now. Am currently watching 'Save the Last Dance'... maybe it's a Julia Stiles phase. Maybe it's the great compilation of songs... or maybe it's because someone told me I was like Heath Ledger in '10 Things I Hate About You.' I honestly don't think I am. I've only stayed in Australia for 3 weeks, only had a whiff of the Australian outback for an hour in the zoo, don't think I've got a 'bad girl' attitude, don't think I put on a tough exterior and certainly don't do carpentry. Carpentry was always fun though, because my dad and I worked on it together - we made a wooden radio, bench, bookshelf, treehouse, doghouse and even a wheelbarrow using the wheels of my baby walker. Art and Living Skills class (Kemahiran Hidup to you homies) also required the occasional sculpture out of plasticine or clay. I had my own little row of horses, bears, dolphins, dogs and panthers on my wardrobe, which ended up a lump of cracked dough several years later when the plasticine dried out. My 'official' pride and joy (ie the one that I handed in to class) was a ould of the Titanic made out of clay. I used 4 kilos of that stuff and my dad had to help me carry it. the things with sculptures is that you never need to lift it until you need to lift it and then you realize that you can't... or at least, that was my experience. I even made tiny figurines representing Leonardo de Caprio and Kate Winslet in the memorable "I am flying" scene. And then I made them jump... hehehehehehehe.

Anyway, have no set plans at the moment for New Year's Eve or Day. Tom will be in London on the 1st so that should be fun and I really want to go to see the fireworks at the Big Wheel but it'll be F-R-E-E-Z-I-N-G!!!!!!! I was thinking of maybe making use of the free transport to randomly travel to different stations in London, preferably stations and places I have never been to before and take pictures but I'll need people to go with me to make it really fun (and more safe as I am prone to giving strangers my number).

I haven't heard any more news from my parents yet about their final decision for next year so I've maintained the "I'm going home mentality" to refrain from excess brain hassle. I need to get a prayer life. Yeah, it's not I need to pray more... I need to start praying. God has worked in my life and made it better and richer in so many ways without any input on my part and any measley input I do contribute is only a tiny proportion to the huge plan He has already set out for me.

Monday, December 26, 2005

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Now that Christmas is officially over for the year, my life can start getting hair-wired again. Or maybe hare-wired cos I feel like a March Hare on a sugar high going *hic* *hic* *hic* whilst pretending I am both a dog *pant* *pant* and a horse *hrrrumph* at the same time. All this while coughing up my lungs, kidneys, blood clots and what else not. At the rate I'm going, I wouldn't be surprised to see my butt cheek oozing out with the phlem - *sigh* I don't even have a white girl's ass and this illness will set me back considerably. Hoong Wai has helped somewhat by reminding me not to die...

Phoned parents this morning because was worried as they didn't call yesterday and they always call on Christmas Day. Everyone's okay and are in okay health... no actually, my dad has a sore throat and couldn't even speak to me on the phone, my sister caught the flu, my granny's really fragile at mo and I've got a bloomin' headache (towards the back of my head and halfway down my neck) to deal with. I was greeted with great news from my mum (No, she's not pregnant with my third sibling - I wouldn't be sane enough to type if she were - although Sarah and Abram had a kid in their nineties...). My folks are thinking of leaving me in London for a while longer. I hope you do realise that when I say great, my ardent desire is nothing short of pounding into a donkey's brain, my intentions for the word to drip with every ounce of sarcasm I can muster. God's being funny again. Everytime I find peace over a matter that's been bugging me, He swings open another door, which confuses me even more. I am (more than) a collection of molecules with animals on the brain and perhaps the sheep in me is slightly overwhelmed. Baaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! This is how God usually works in my life;

Problem 1
I get worried
I get stressed
I get mad
I get emotional and sad
I pray
I don't pray
I pray
I distance myself from people to help focus my mind
I force myself to mix with other Christians and receive very good advice in the process
I hope
I become happy
I resolve
I am at peace and looking forward to experiencing new life that I didn't want to experience before
I plan around this new found peace
God opens another door
I become confused
Which way to look?
Problem 2...

I think they want me to do the BVC and get called to the bar and then they hinted working in London and gave examples of people back home who were in full-time minstry and full-time secular work. Maths is not my strongest subject but surely you can't be full time in both. I don't count weekdays in a day job and weekends and nights in church ministry 'full-time.' Argh. Maybe I should just be a farmer in the Orkneys... raise a few sheep, knit a few scarves, grow a few potatoes...

Good tidings of great joy

A poetic reflection of my last year-ish...

God Almighty,
God supreme,
God my only,
God my King.

Friendships found,
Loves dejected,
Moments formed,
When least expected.

Aching purifying,
Hope always present,
Not from my own,
But the giver of Salvation.

Refusing instincts,
Forcing goodwill,
Turmoil in
the heart and mind.

Problems solved,
Decisons made,
And then I realise
Was no problem at all.

A heart of hope,
A spirit of love,
A mind of steadfastness,
My will as that above.

A dog to cuddle,
May be just the thing,
But delusions
Never benefitting.

A passion for life,
But must not lose sight,
Of the greater call,
Must not leave the fight.

For all my holding ons,
For all my defences,
They count for nought,
Only God has the answer.

Only God is my fortress,
Only God is my might,
Only God will ever know me,
To be one with my God;

I fail Him,
I hurt Him,
I stand by
as people mock Him,
But,
His promises are true,
His wisdom is sure,
His hand goes
beyond the grave,
For one purpose; to save.

And there He claimed me,
And there He proclaimed,
And with a shout He rose and,
Gone is the curse,
For all who believe,
That our salvation started on a body lifeless,
And in Bethlehem we were given
the gift of Christmas.

Merry Christmas.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas!!!

Hoong Wai wants to say something. Only very privileged people get to say something on my blog so let's all hope he makes it a good one. Way to go!

"Oh where oh where can my baby be? The Lord took her away from me...." No, wrong song...
"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me.. I once was lost, but now am found.. Was blind but now I see.... :)"

Debs: From Pearl Jam's 'Last Kiss' to a traitor's kiss... very profound...

Am listening to Beauty and the Beast - the musical - again!!! Will update in the morning.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

My song for the season

I played and replayed this song 10 times when Sarah gave it to me yesterday. If I had a discman I would be listening to this song and the Beauty and the Beast musical CD that Elena bought for me continuosly.

I just don't love you no more (I'm sorry)
Craig David

For all the years I've known you baby,
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why're you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Oh I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of these silly games
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[Chorus]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that you're gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
i just don't love you no more

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you no more

[Chorus x2]

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Goofy and horsing around

You scored as Goofy. Your alter ego is Goofy! You are fun and great to be around, and you are always willing to help others. You arn't worried about embarrassing yourself, so you are one who is more willing to try new things.

Goofy


75%

Sleeping Beauty


69%

Ariel


56%

Peter Pan


56%

Donald Duck


50%

The Beast


50%

Cinderella


44%

Cruella De Ville


44%

Pinocchio


38%

Snow White


38%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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You scored as Evil Muffin. You are an evil muffin. You evil muffin you.

Evil Muffin


83%

Michaella Muffin


67%

Chocolate Muffin


67%

Blueberry Muffin


50%

Rotten Muffin


50%

Poppyseed Muffin


0%

What kind of muffin are you? (the better quiz)
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You scored as You Are Deb. You are Deb. You are laid back, and don't care what people think. Good for you. You like to do awkward crafts, but thats ok Rate my quiz a 5, and there will be a link to click on to see my picture!!!

You Are Deb


75%

You are Pedro Sanchez


75%

Kip Dynamite


19%

Napoleon Dynamite


0%

What person from Napoleon Dynamite are you?!?!?!
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You scored as Shetland Pony. You are quick tempered and show it.

Shetland Pony


96%

Thoroughbred


88%

Morgan


75%

Audalusian


58%

Quarter Horse


54%

Mustang


50%

Camargue


50%

Chickasaw


29%

Arabian


4%

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Dragon lady

You scored as Dragon. Dragon: Now talk about a legend. These magnificent creatures are of many species. Some can be as large as the Earth itself, while others are as small as a mouse. One image that comes to everyone's mind is the large, fire breathing Dragons that loathed humans and loved to sleep on massive piles of gold. Not all dragons have a bad reputation. Most dragons are very wise, caring, and protective. It would make a person very lucky indeed to meet a dragon. Especially if they walked away untouched. I admire your wisdom, for you are the Ancient Dragon.

Dragon

100%

Faerie

100%

Mermaid

83%

Angel

75%

WereWolf

67%

Demon

58%

What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
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You scored as Emma Woodhouse. Emma is possibly one of the most loyal characters of Austen, always wanting better for those around her and doing all she possibly can to make it happen. Her motives sometimes get in the way of her good intentions and her own opinions can end up ruling her actions, but she has a good heart. She loves to be social and is welcoming to most, unless they are too silly to tolerate. While she sometimes changes her behavior to make others feel comfortable, she knows who she is and is always bettering herself.

Emma Woodhouse

91%

Elinor Dashwood

84%

Jane Bennet

75%

Elizabeth Bennet

69%

Lady Catherine

53%

Marianne Dashwood

47%

Charlotte Lucas

25%

Which Jane Austen Character are You? (For Females) Long Quiz!!!
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Monday, December 19, 2005

If I've not said it already, I'm saying it now...

I think I want to be a baker...

Homies, see you in a few months cos I'll be back! Will be joining the baking school on Jalan Keretapi to pass the time and will spend the rest of my time picking my brother up from school and taking him to lunch and swimming and badminton...

This week has gone by really quickly and now my last Christmas in London is fast approaching. Have said my Christmas holiday goodbyes and have hosted a respectable number of parties the last year. Will be having a sleepover at mine for the Christmas weekend and have got a mountain of reading to do. Sang with all my might at carol service last night even though I had a very sore throat and now it is retaliating.

I've made some amazing friends; friendships that I'm sure will last regardless of years gone by or miles apart and I can't thank them enough for sticking by me when I was being 'stupid,' tolerating my over analytical nature, silent treatment and grumpy mornings, giving me God-centered advice and kicks up my backside when I needed it, for forgiving and helping me trust, for supporting decisions I was unsure about, for holding me down and building me up. Do we really want names? For now they shall remain unsung heroes but in Heaven I'll be able to thank them for eternity until they gt tired of me repeating stories for the millionth time to the millionth person.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Nicotine

I don't like it, i think it stinks, it raises my blood pressure, at this moment I smell of it... Ever since I realised that working at the student union meant free coke, I've been wiping my butt across the chairs in The Waterfront. That was a bit crude wasn't it? There's something about having piercings that seems to imply (for me at least) that I can be as don't carish as I want to be. But then, Raymond told me today that I am what I say I am. For instance, if I say, "I'm a control freak," not only do I give the impression of the possessive, neurotic, clingy, needy person, I also somehow, manage to persuade myself that I'm not happy to relinquish control when actually I would be quite happy to let someone I trust take the reins. When I say, "I'm a shrew," although what I mean to say is I don't let anyone mess me around, in saying I am a shrew, I automatically associate myself with craftiness, aggresive weasel-like behaviour and inevitable singlehood for the future.

Words may never hurt me, but they can certainly change me.

James 3:7-9 (New International Version)

All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness.

Friday, December 09, 2005

I am French!

You scored as French. French!

French

75%

HongKonger

70%

Aussie

60%

Chinese

50%

German

50%

Japanese

40%

American

40%

British

40%

Taiwanese

40%

Singaporean

10%

What will you be after reborn? (translation)
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It's Christmas time, there's no need to be afraid...

Yeah right. All of a sudden, how well one knows one's friends is tested via present buying - the right present: friendship is going on the right track, wrong present: are we really friends? I've already mentally bought presents; remembering what I saw three months ago at such and such a place that such and such a person would like. I keep on asking Elena and Sarah if they have bought presents for one another, worried that one of us (maybe me) will have less than 2 presents under the tree. I already know what I'm buying them and unfortunately, being one of the worst people to keep present related secrets, I nearly told Elena last night what I bought for her (I've already told Sean what he's getting for Christmas). Christmas cards, while fun to send, still cause 'stress' - have I sent this card to X,Y,Z before? This year, my role around the Christmas table will be the granny who reminds everyone that, "This is my last Christmas so if you spoil it, you've spoilt my LAST Christmas." This will also probably be the last year I have turkey for Christmas - maybe it's because the Malaysian ecosystem cannot hold turkeys??!!??

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Fowl words

Elena and I have been busy messing with the ecosystem, spanking monkeys, batting penguins and coming up with as many Fowl Words as possible...

After 27 rounds of fowl play, over a thousand meters of kitten canonballing, aquatic greed, Strictly ballroom, Blade and too many Milkyway chocolates on Saturday, we did an all-nighter into Sunday! And so, to treat ourselves, between 5.30 and 6.30am, we put up, for the last time together, our Christmas tree for the year. To add to the joy of Christmas... I put on the worst, cheesiest Christmas music - according to Elena, that is. I went to bed at 7am and woke at 3pm. Grudgingly decided to go to church so went in a skirt which I thought was too short anyway but I felt rebellious. Made up for it slightly by wearing a chunky sweater and knee high boots. However, as many people point out and which I have experienced myself, the days when one feels most unwilling to go to church yet goes, are the days when some of the best news is given, where wise words make life understandable again, where hope is sparked and where direction is refocused.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

More about me

You Are Creepy
Serial killers would run away from you in a flash.


You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.


How You Live Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.


Your Brain's Pattern
Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.


Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)


You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.


You Passed 8th Grade Math!!!

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!